Mattress Radar

We have had a few nights lately, tonight being one of them, especially if you look at the posting time of this message, in which I, of course being up way too late, decide to finally go to bed. I no longer get in a comfy position, nestled just so beneath the covers with the pillow in perfect position for my head, breathe a nice big sigh, and begin to drift off to dreamland, when a cry disrupts the whole process. I swear, sometimes it seems as if she knows when I go to bed and then calls for me. Do alarm bells sound off and light up in her crib when she realizes that I have gone down for the night myself? It's like she is effing with me. Don't they do this to prisoners? It's horrible. The last two nights she has a legitimate concern - she pooped, so I quick change, and nurse her back down. That begs the question then of why I let her cry for 10-15 mins hoping and praying that OhDearGodWillSheJustGoBackToSleep, when I could have fixed the problem right away. Then, on top of it all, I feel obligated to stay up even (at least 20 mins or so), because to get settled again and then disrupted would be downright torture. I don't know how we got off routine as much as we did being back from vacation (alluded to in previous post), but it truly feels crazy. At least I have family nap time from earlier to help overall. I need to just start retiring earlier in the evening, but I find myself trying to wait it out. Because its almost better to be tired in general, then be tired, go to bed, just drift off, and then be woke up. In fact, instead of more mindless internet surfing, I am going to chance the bed and risk being disturbed from precious slumber, but I am just so dang tired...