Free at Last

So, a couple posts ago I eluded to the fact that I was making some positive changes.  And I still am!  They involve purging my life of negativity and anxiety.

First, I am working on my ongoing mental "To-Do" List that has been plaguing me since I moved in last year.  My office is the priority right now, and I have been steadily chipping away at it.  Almost there!  Funny thing is, once I started working on that, I keep finding other things to do, making me seriously question when and if I will ever be "Done".  Have some other reorganizational things in mind as well, especially in regards to a certain two-year old's toys!  When I have the time to work on it though, sans child, it seems other "Life" gets in the way.  It is always something, but at least I am still being productive, right?

Second, I left my job recently.  This is not a huge hit to the belt as it was more of a hobby and for professional development than an actual income.  Although I loved working with my clients, being affiliated with that organization was fraught with frustration, negativity, anxiety, and anger.  I definitely overstayed my season there.  And I lost something that was my creation and they are reaping benefits of my hard work and ideas.  I was going to blog about my experience, but feel it would "stir the pot" so I will just say it didn't go as I planned and leaving was under less-than-desirable circumstances.  I felt bad about it for awhile, even though I was not at fault, but am pretty much over it.  It is finally sinking in that I am free, held back by nothing other than my own boundaries.  And that feels pretty damn good!

Not one to be held down, my brain began churning and wouldn't stop until I had something of my "own" again.  I created another breastfeeding support group, BestMilk Bistro.  Most of my moms have stayed with me, which is nice.  Because after 9 months, you become a little attached to them.  I have watched their children grow up and reach milestones right in front of my eyes!  I get no money for this, only the satisfaction that I enjoy what I do and I am good at it.  And that is payment enough.  It is my personal ministry and something I am passionate about - educating and helping new mothers navigate the breastfeeding relationship and building support and community for them.  How great is that?!?

Here is my new logo:

What do you think?

As for my other plans, I have some ideas for down the road.  I am finishing up a teaching/research project right now and hope to start working again in that field.  And to start bringing in some much needed income.  But, first things first.    I am getting my life together and right now I feel I am on a really good path.  I have been very blessed and finally feel I am heading in the right direction!  Alleluia!