Letting Go

I have been getting adjusted to being home and what that means for our lives, on top of navigating some big changes with Emily, things I am trying to do around here, personally, financially, and professionally.  I was NOT feeling very well last week and had my AHA! moment where I realized I had stopped taking a key supplement for me.  Apparently it works better than I thought!  (Alfalfa, if you are wondering).  I just felt exhausted and just run down.  Couldn't seem to get my head in the game at all, which is totally unlike me.  My mind kept churning a constant list despite my efforts to honor the obviously needed respite. 

But today, I just saw myself at a crossroads - going down one path, struggling constantly, losing patience, and really in the end not getting anywhere; the other was simple praying and relinquishing control.  Before, heading down the first path, I was just mentally abusing myself, really.  I had a nice, personal, long chat today with God - and it is amazing how much more at peace I feel.  I just needed to LET GO and stop trying to muck around in His plans.  And my day was SO smooth.  Had a lot to accomplish and just prayed I would be led to do what was best - and suddenly I was almost done organizing all the toys (with some help from Bon Jovi)!  A task I have been putting off for months!  My house looks amazing, and I can only hope He helps me with going through clothes - another personal favorite of mine.  And I have slowly, but steadily, been knocking things off my to-do list today.  Such a great feeling.  Have a bunch more to get done, as usual, but have to learn to just take a step back and breathe and actually LET GO. 

I have had a couple post ideas as usual floating on the edges, but in the end, today I realized, for right now, I am just too tired.  Tired of talking really, of analyzing everything (funny I wrote a blog post about my situation analysis than, huh?  Oh, the irony, my friend!).  So I may eventually get to them, I may not.  But bottom line is I am feeling enriched and fulfilled and like myself - like my head just got screwed on, or something.  Thanks be to God - to Him, all Glory!  But, seriously?  Watch out, world, I'm back!


**** I apologize for my lack of grammar and writing style as I am so tired after such a productive day, and my wine isn't helping.  Thanks for bearing with me!   ****