Who is this person who wells up from the tips of my toes when dealing with matters relating to my daughter? Not in a positive way, either; more like a defensive, justifying, don't question my ability/style/manner of parenting, mama bear type person. Often unneccesarily so, or arriving there via jumping to conclusions. Had a moment at my daughter's birthday party that got a little ugly. Not proud of that, and, although I can place blame on it being a family trait, I choose to take full responsibility for my own insanity. I really don't know why I get like that. I think it's the defensiveness that bothers me the most, even though she is my daughter and I will continue to do things the way I see fit. Yet, at times, I am almost combative. Of course I always feel provoked, but this was not one of them. Goodness. I need to take some deep breaths and detach myself from the situation for a moment before responding. Or, just respond normally without getting my ire up.
A lot going on, out of town visiting family and such. Much more to blog about, when I get some time (ha ha), regarding my daughter's entrance into toddlerhood (can't hardly believe it!) and other such matters. Until then...
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