I HATE sleep regressions!

This sucks. The questionable teething, developmental, separation anxiety BS is killing us. She just hates to be alone and won't sleep anymore. Her normal "magic" routine is failing us, which is leading to a lack of consistency and possibly creating bad habits. Even the cure-all boob is not working! SIGH. Her cries are dreadful - absolutely painful and desolate sounding. Really hurts your heart. I know she can't be having fun with all of this either, and I know its just something to pass through, BUT you just want to fix it.

This is conveniently occurring when my in-laws are in for a visit, too. And before our big overnight trip (the first) with her in a hotel where she is not co-sleeping. And I can pretty much say goodbye to my date night with the hubs (which we still have NEVER had and that fact pisses me off). Fabulous. So I am hating this and feeling resentful. Great place to be, I tell ya.

I think the thing that makes it even worse is the fact that we had been doing SO well prior to this episode. Going down like a dream at regular times and sleeping through the night (I can confidently talk about this now since it has all gone to shit). What a tease! So now it is like getting smacked square in the head with a 2 by 4. All those previous, precious evening hours I wasted.... Makes me seriously want to scream myself! No studying, or much of anything else, getting done here, let me tell you.

It is like being back in the newborn period all over again with the self-doubt and constant "what do we do?" and I hate it. Because I just started feeling like I knew what the hell was going on. Of course. I hate everyone ominously threatening if we "give in to her" she will be ruined at this point. As if she is just being bad. Whatever - unless you are at my house helping at bedtime, you DON'T get a say. Good lord. And it just is getting progressively worse with each sleep period; now naps are affected. Goody!

Anyways, I just needed to vent. Still don't know how to handle it, hubs is stressed and getting sleepless from the stress of it, which makes him pretty unable to have a conversation about the matter and things are feeling strained (when we have been doing SO well). See a pattern? I am typing now as she is screaming and I am waiting for the bathroom.

Wish me luck and send any positive vibes my way. Seriously, pray for me. I want the magic thing to stop all of this insanity. But for now, I just keep repeating "this too shall pass" as I put my head down and charge on through...