Nothing New

I was hoping that with this being a new month and all, I would have some good news to share. Although, I am so utterly superstitious about anything sleep-related at this point, I probably won't anyways! Sigh. Still struggling and questioning and trying to form THE PLAN. I don't operate well without one, and when we do make one, I don't think I am patient enough to see results. I hate this special little corner of sleep-issue hell.

On the up side, the monkey has officially become a biped and started walking. Right after our March for Babies - guess she took it literally! It's so cute to see her little self toddling around, oh so very proud of herself. She has to bounce and dance and then clap because she is just the cat's meow! She has so many cute new tricks and has been so lovey and fun during the day. I have given up the naptime fight - she usually naps in the car (at least I can study; YES, I am parked!). Sometimes two, but mainly only one nap lately. So maybe that transition is happening now too. Joy. It just makes my lack of the evening that much harder and sucks my patience right down the tubes. It is so quiet in here in the evening its like a museum. Sad sad sad.

Still no teeth. I seriously think dentures are in her future. Still nursing, and thank God, because she also decided she wants to get fussy about eating (and mainly its just plain more fun to feed the puppies than eat herself). So we will see. All the old sleep books are out, and I have a running feed of thought going through my head at all times. Creating THE PLAN (which will rectify the situation) and then arguing/talking myself out of it, and revising. Someday, people, someday.

I compose very clever posts while up in her room trying to (oh please god) boob her down, but by the time I manage to sneak away, it is long forgotten. I think the effort it takes to raise the crib bar without making too much noise just sucks it out of me. My goal is severely limited now to her just starting out the night in the crib and then coming to bed with me if needed (as I have no patience past 10 or 11 to fight the good fight). However, even that isn't working most nights. Needless to say I am sore from sleeping in one position and my nips feel like teeny pirrhanas have been gnawing on them.

Well I probably have about another 15 mins, probably better try to finish my chapter. That's all for now, please please please keep us in your prayers or send some sleep vibes our way! Ta ta!