Internet Vortex

I haven't posted myself because I have been snared into the internet lately. Moreso even than my addicted husband, which is slightly scary to me!

First, Moxie had a fabulous discussion on keeping perspective that really rang true with me. So many points of discussion regarding isolation of new mothers, the cultural impact of blogging on motherhood, honesty on one's feelings about said motherhood, etc. (To be fair, the same could be said for fathers; but although I know my fair share of at-home dads, it is still more common to be a SAHM. Plus, its my blog and I will focus on my own gender, so there!) This really struck a chord with many many of her readers and the comments were fascinating and heartbreaking.

Second, I heard about a new holiday coming up that I really need to research more. Once I do, I will post here on my own progress. Although, with what I have going on now, I was thinking of delaying it a little until my move in July. Things that make you go hmmm....

Third, I found this new (for me) blog that sells the funniest pro-breastfeeding gear that I absolutely NEED to announce/advertise my own lactivism. Now if only I had some extra money...

Fourth, I realized that I never posted my goals on here that I have mentioned before. I will get to that someday. As far as health goes I am considering purchasing a new at-home work-out DVD that I have heard is fabulous. I read the book and am very intrigued, especially by the less is more idea. This may be where my limited fun money goes.

Fifth, I am in the process of making the decision to sit for the International Board Certified Lactation Consultant Exam in July. Do I have enough time to prepare, will I buckle down and study as I should, do we have the money (NOT cheap), will the move mess me up, is this a good time, would next year be better, should I just do it now, etc? have been running through my mind pretty consistently. Add to that the research on the application process, required hours, necessary continuing education, and study materials, and you will see I have been pretty pre-occupied. I am praying about this and was asking God for a sign. I received this email the following day. Again, hmmm... I need to make a decision quickly, though, and am leaning toward "Go For It!".

Not internet related per se (but I did learn of it from Ask Moxie, go figure), I FINALLY got a book that I have been waiting on for almost 7 months. It was out of print but now I have it in my grubby little paws. Very interesting stuff, still perusing in detail. Maybe will discuss in my free time (can you hear me cackling over the web?). Also have another book that I am now engrossed in at the moment regarding positive lifestyle changes (ties in nicely with my goals. Maybe when I am done reading that and have renewed vigor I will post something then).

And other than that I have sort of been in a funk. Not depressed but more apathetic. Slacked off on kitchen duties and other household responsibilities like the dogs, errands, grocery shopping, etc. Not to mention my own health issues - hello, remember the gym? (I finally decided it absolutely does NOT count as exercise even IF the gym bag is packed by the door every blessed day but NEVER gets picked up). Partly this is due to said internet usage lately and just a general neglectfulness. The monkey and the man are the only things I have been not brushing aside. At least I have my priorities straight. Wait, I guess I should add myself to the list. Again, hmmmm....

Add to this, monkey is changing up the sleep patterns (again!) and is needier than usual (again!). Diaper changes have become an all out effort - I literally had to physically restrain her the last few times because she fights and writhes so much I am scared she is going to hurt herself. No idea why, either. She cries hard and breath-holds just for added enjoyment. I am starting to hate changing her. I wish they made diapers like they do contacts now - change once every week (nevermind, that is disgusting). It kills me because I have no idea what to do or why this is occurring. Most distressing is that I have employed my limited creative tricks and they have failed miserably. It sucks. Maybe a Wonder Week is approaching (see above book)? Maybe its teeth? Who the heck knows anyways. I wish the little buggers came with a window on their forehead that told you what they needed and what was going on with them. But, alas.

Well, it is time for me to turn into a pumpkin. Yet again, I am up too late on this blasted internet. Danged new fangled technology! Really a vicious cycle...